Sometimes i wonder whats in my capability to help friends in need.. all i can do is lend a listening ear and empathise. It really is scary when i see a friend collapsing in front of me, just leaving me paralysized when that happens..
Staring at the orange sky @ 9:46 PM
Questioners are responsible, trustworthy, and value loyalty to family, friends, groups, and causes. Their personalities range broadly from reserved and timid to outspoken and confrontative. How to Get Along with Me What I Like About Being a Six What's Hard About Being a Six Sixes as Children Often Sixes as Parents Renee Baron & Elizabeth Wagele The Enneagram Made Easy you wanna know MORE? or do you prefer to Would you rather have chosen:
Staring at the orange sky @ 9:09 AM
life is a spike / upon which i have impaled mysefl / fuck you dad So, your personality is defective because you are too gentle, rather underconfident in yourself, decidely lacking in any rational thought, and also a bit too inhibited. Plus, your poetry really upsets your father. I probably made you cry, didn't I? Fucking Emo Kid. To put it less negatively: 1. You are more INTUITIVE than rational. 2. You are more INTROVERTED than extroverted. 3. You are more GENTLE than brutal. 4. You are more HUMBLE than arrogant. Compatibility: Your exact opposite is the Smartass. Other personalities you would probably get along with are the Hippie, the Televangelist, and the Starving Artist. * * If you scored near fifty percent for a certain trait (42%-58%), you could very well go either way. For example, someone with 42% Extroversion is slightly leaning towards being an introvert, but is close enough to being an extrovert to be classified that way as well. Below is a list of the other personality types so that you can determine which other possible categories you may fill if you scored near fifty percent for certain traits. The other personality types: The Emo Kid: Intuitive, Introverted, Gentle, Humble. The Starving Artist: Intuitive, Introverted, Gentle, Arrogant. The Bitch-Slap: Intuitive, Introverted, Brutal, Humble. The Brute: Intuitive, Introverted, Brutal, Arrogant. The Hippie: Intuitive, Extroverted, Gentle, Humble. The Televangelist: Intuitive, Extroverted, Gentle, Arrogant. The Schoolyard Bully: Intuitive, Extroverted, Brutal, Humble. The Class Clown: Intuitive, Extroverted, Brutal, Arrogant. The Robot: Rational, Introverted, Gentle, Humble. The Haughty Intellectual: Rational, Introverted, Gentle, Arrogant. The Spiteful Loner: Rational, Introverted, Brutal, Humble. The Sociopath: Rational, Introverted, Brutal, Arrogant. The Hand-Raiser: Rational, Extroverted, Gentle, Humble. The Braggart: Rational, Extroverted, Gentle, Arrogant. The Capitalist Pig: Rational, Extroverted, Brutal, Humble. The Smartass: Rational, Extroverted, Brutal, Arrogant. Be sure to take my Sublime Philosophical Crap Test if you are interested in taking a slightly more intellectual test that has just as many insane ramblings as this one does!
Staring at the orange sky @ 9:02 AM
Staring at the orange sky @ 10:53 PM
Something i feel like talking about since last night's conversation with Mel. Lets get on the topical debate of the words "Hope" and "False Hope".
Staring at the orange sky @ 9:51 AM
What is this tight and heavy feeling that im getting in my chest?.
Staring at the orange sky @ 2:36 PM
Monday, October 23, 2006
In the end all i can do is pray. That what small power i have to bring back the light is enough..
pls tell me how i can help..
Thursday, October 19, 2006
the Questioner
Thanks for taking the test ! you chose CY - your Enneagram type is SIX. "I am affectionate and skeptical"
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You chose CY My test tracked 2 variables How you compared to other people your age and gender: You scored higher than 99% on ABC You scored higher than 99% on XYZ Link: The Quick & Painless ENNEAGRAM Test written by felk on OkCupid Free Online Dating, home of the The Dating Persona Test
Wednesday, October 18, 2006
Emo Kid
You are 14% Rational, 28% Extroverted, 14% Brutal, and 28% Arrogant. You are the Emo Kid, best described as a quiet pussy! You tend to be an intuitive rather than a logical thinker, meaning you rely more on your feelings than your thoughts. Not only that, but you are introverted, gentle, and rather humble. You embody all the traits of the perfect emo kid. You are a push-over, an emotional thinker, gentle to the extent of absurdity, and so humble that it even makes Jesus puke. (And Jesus almost never pukes, being immortal and not requiring an act of puke to dispell toxins from his corporeal manifestation.) If you write poetry, you no doubt write angsty, syrupy lines about depression, sadness, and other such redundant states of emo-being that go something like this: Link: The Personality Defect Test written by saint_gasoline on OkCupid Free Online Dating, home of the The Dating Persona Test
Monday, October 16, 2006
Libra Man
... Heterosexual
He looks for psycological action along experimential rather than purely physical lines. His character forever is full swing, he is continually out to achieve some objective; this is not the sit-quietly-by-yourself sign. Libra embodies his motto, “We are”, and a relationship with him can feel like a duet or danceathon that has gone too long. A lot is going on in the mind of this man, and he's beaming with agendas. Sex for him must be “beautiful”. His vision of lovemaking is rather lyrical – no fumbling or false starts, but rather a slow, erotic journey with lots of crescendo, and a sweeping, successful finish that should never leave him or his partner wanting. As a result he may, indulges in lavish foreplay, determined to to gratify a woman early on if only as a preventive measure, daunted by the prospect of not delivering a big bang during intercourse. Fittingly, he is a “light”, surfacey lover – orderly, yet improvisational. Kissing a woman's mouth, neck, ears, whatever, Libra expertly employs breath- sharp inhalations or hot blows – to awake hidden erogenous zones. He is a master of the soft touch, barely tracing his fingers over a woman's body, allowing her anticipation to play a part in arousal. Libra is engineered for a tantric style of lovemaking. By taking a more yogic approach to sex – the erotic act with Libra can indeed be a transcendent experience. With the brain being by far the Scale's most powerful tool, sexually or otherwise, he may, in extream cases, become so immersed in the erotic that it replaces any real, physical contact, intrigued as he is by no-fuss, no-muss hands off experiences. Classy strippers, phone sex, autoeroticism, as well as elaborate mind games of domination and submission and voyeuristic fantasies are Libran domain.
Straight turn-ons: Dominant females, tall women, classic beauty, models, (active) worship, long, straight hair, alabaster skin, kissing, licking, cleavage, cunnilingus, vanilla, voyeurism, female masturbation, (passive) lite bondage, girl on top, side entry, licking, blowing, biting, (active) nipple play, m-m-f threesomes, couples, private clubs, erotica, (passive) nipple play, sensual touching
Homosexual
As one of the truly bisexuals signs of the zodiac, he is especially paradoxical in his sexual attractions. In brass tacks, Libra is prone to liking threesomes, of either the female-male-female or the male-female-male variety. Having a bisexual female partner is an especially thrilling possibility to the Libra, as the possibilities seem endless. As if Libra's paradoxical nature wasn't confusing enough, he's at once attracted to the straightestof men and the most ambiguous of women. Of all gay men, Libra is perhaps the least naturally inclined toward steady relationships. His attraction to straight-acting, -appearing, and indeed –identified men finds him hooking up with the most barely bisexual characters – “closet cases” – with whom he shares a homoerotic, rather than strictly homosexual, approach to same-sex contact. Libra can be quite the little male Lolita, precociously prevoking whatever submerged gay fantasy another man might possess. Like his straight counterpart, gay Libra likes to keep sex light and lively: Some of the manly tops he attracts push his envelope a little further than he typically likes. He is orally adept, though perhaps not especially talented in the deep-throating department. Sixty-nine is standard sexual fare for the Scales guy, all things being equal. A need for order and control prohibits Libra from ever being the consummate submissive. Instead, he might be described as an agressive bottom.
Gay turn-ons: Younger males, straight, married men, models, pretty boys, long hair, scandinavians, mutual j/o, body contact, gymnasts, swimmers, surfers, skaters, marble skin, bisexuality, threesomes, artists, landscapers, (active) nipple play, low hangers, voyeurism, (passive) analingus, (passive) lite b+d, hairy treasure trails, spas, saunas, steam rooms. bonvivantism, soccer kit, players, (active) oral My test tracked 2 variables How you compared to other people your age and gender: You scored higher than 99% on Sex You scored higher than 99% on Starsign Link: The Sextrology Test written by KamikazeParrot on OkCupid Free Online Dating, home of the The Dating Persona Test
This is esp for Mel who intro-ed this to me. hahahahaha.. Breast man
65% Breast Worthy! Your'e a breast man...you may just not be MY kind of breast man. For you efforts, I'll give you a little tease. Here's a little shot of my cleavage...just for playing. My test tracked 1 variable How you compared to other people your age and gender: You scored higher than 99% on Breast Worthy Link: The Want To See My Breasts? Test written by AspiringDiva on OkCupid Free Online Dating, home of the The Dating Persona Test
Thursday, October 05, 2006
Hope. The feeling that what is wanted can be had or that events will turn out for the best, to look forward to with desire and reasonable confidence.. Or Hope against hope. To continue to hope, although the outlook does not warrant it.
Interesting how that one word can mean the exact opposite of the spectrum in different circumstances. i guess it does play a big part in deciphering its meaning. Personally, when i think of it generally, its the feeling of something good to come. How i hope for the best. How i want the good times to keep coming. How i hope against hope that theres a chance for a better change in people. Esp a specific few whom i shall not mention.
Then theres false hope. The meaning whereby to me, is the mention of falsehood and past facts(which may no longer be applicable) to bring up ones belief and expectations. And where else does it lead to? I call it the fools paradise. Self delutional world where hopes and dreams come true though the likelyhood of those coming true are probably a fraction away from nil.
To be frank, i think im one of those jokers who fall in the "fools paradise" category. The thought of giving up just because a person changed(therefore the past fact no longer being relevant) and it is, indeed a hard fact for some to accept. But thats pretty normal, people change all the time right? Its just so much harder to accept it when its for the worse..
So what do you, reader, hope for?
Monday, October 02, 2006
Im gonna do something tommorrow i'd never thought of possible a year ago.
Breaking that kryptonite..
all confidence in the angel i once knew has extinguished. Just the dilemma of HOW to do it. Its for the best, isnt it? I dunno, right now i feel so god damn lost.
I need some assurance damnit. I know whats good for me. But pain has its strange ways to make it seem so enticing. BLEAH.
"i gotta do it..! And move on in life.