Life is a like a Sunset

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Monday, November 28, 2005

Christmas is coming! Everywhere i go, i hear the old repeated (but not boring) christmas songs aired. SIGH~ the festive season. Damn. Have not planned what to do for christmas yet.. not that it needs prior planning of course. Just that i feel it its gonna be another un-fulfilled celebration for me. Ya know.. havin so much expectations for a certain event? Yet also half-expecting some dissapointment that might come along.

CAN I RUN AWAY FOR CHRISTMAS?!?! LIKE REALLY REALLY FAR??

Ok ignore that. -.- Loneliness is a killer. Bleah.

Know the feeling of being with that special someone underneath the mistletoe, enjoying the moment, just the two of you? Man.. I want that again! Christmas seems the best when i was in my childhood, now that i think of it.. Jus happilly opening presents at home, happy with EVERYTHING u got cause there were no expectations. I remember working at MU on christmas eve 2 yrs ago.. Now that was somethin to remember. ha! No expectations again cause i already knew i was working. But the customers and fellow colleagues made it a WONDERFUL night! Sprayin of the fake snow and huggin like everyone! (includin the babe customers) and of course the countdown! Really hope this year would be something near it at least.. with all the expectations i have, hopefully it wont turn out as a dissapointment personally for me. Well im outta here. Ciao!

Staring at the orange sky @ 8:49 AM

Yo! What a weekend.. Well lets see.. Oh! I managed to finally do my eyebrows! Well.. some of it.. haha.. Made it neater but its no where thinner by any means -.- So i guess i'll have to make another trip to the shop this weekend for my second round of perspiring, eyebrow-plucking session.

Met Fiz yesterday at Cine around 4pm (sorry bro.. heh) though i was supposed to meet him much earlier in the afternoon. Went for coffee @ (where else) spinelli then we headed to the arcade @ Cine for our usual KOF bout. haha! Shit bro ur jus as smelly.. -.- You wait! I shall find a fool proof way of beatin ur ass! *&#^@*&

Anyway, went again for another coffee session with Marilyn and her cousin later that evening and we headed to the Taka garden to slack as we boozed out night and weekend away.. Honestly, i kinda miss these things. Jus chillin out in the open air, playin silly games (not KINGS), singing our hearts out (in which, i could only sing oldies.. ha) and bitchin bout life and each other =P

Staring at the orange sky @ 8:28 AM

Friday, November 25, 2005

lyrics and english translation of "infection" by Chihiro Onitsuka, below.
A twisted way of expressing her weakness and response towards her love (or the lack of it) and how it eats her up inside. Thats my opinion anyway. Really feel for this song when i hear it.

09. infection
Lyrics by: Onitsuka Chihiro
Romaji by: cori
"Nan toka umaku kotaenakucha"

Soshite kono shita ni zassou ga fuete iku
Kodou wo yokogiru kage ga
Mata dareka no kamen wo hagitotte shimau

In the night
I sit down as if I'm dead

* Bakuha shite tobichitta
Kokoro no hahen ga
Sokorajuu de kirakira hikatte iru kedo
Itsu no ma ni atashi wa
Konna ni yowaku natta no darou

Ashi ga sukude shimau koto mo
Ki ni naranai furi wo shite iru no

Atashi no oroka na yamai wa
Dandan hidoku natte iku bakari

In the night
I realize this infection

* repeat

Arayuru chiisana netsu ni
Obiehajimete iru atashi ni
Kachime nado nai noni
Me wo samasanakucha

Bakuha shite tobichitta
Kokoro no hahen ga
Sokorajuu de kirakira hikatte iru kedo
Itsu no ma ni atashi wa
Konna ni yowaku natta no

Bakuha shite tobichitta
Kokoro no hahen ga
Hahen ga hahen ga sokorajuu de

Itsu no ma ni atashi wa
Konna ni yowaku natta no darou

_________________________

"I need to say something good in reply"
and then the weeds on my tongue multiply.

the shadow cutting across my heartbeat
peels away someone's mask again.

In the night
I sit down as if I'm dead.

my heart blows up, and the pieces flying everywhere glitter
but when did I become this weak?

I pretend that I don't notice that my legs have given way.

My foolish sickness just gets worse and worse.

In the night
I realize this infection

my heart blows up, and the pieces flying everywhere glitter
but when did I become this weak?

I'm beginning to be scared of many kinds of tiny fevers
though I don't have a hope of winning
I must awaken from this.

my heart blows up, and the pieces flying everywhere glitter
but at some point I became this weak.

my heart blows up and the pieces, pieces flying everywhere...

when did I become this weak?

Translated By: Brian Stewart & Takako SakumaTranslator's

Staring at the orange sky @ 6:22 AM

Thursday, November 24, 2005

Wow im back! Been wantin to blog since last week but was too tired, busy or plain lazy to. Funny thing is, now that im here, i have no idea what to blog about. All the things i wanted to say about dont seem worth mentioning anymore!

My eyes are easilly afected sleep and smoke recently.. it wouldnt bother me in the past but now it'll tear or at least, feel like it whenever my eyes are tired (going to sleep or lack of sleep) Hope its nothing serious..

Harry Potter and the Exorcism of Emily Rose... Both shows that i have yet to watch and it seems the whole world has watched it already! -.- Anyone who hasnt watched any of these shows TELL ME PLS!

Song of the day : Destiny's Child - Stand Up For Love
(to carrie who said it sounds like a national song -.-, itsss NOOooooT~! Oh and remind me to send you another song when i seeya online)

Staring at the orange sky @ 10:48 AM

Monday, November 14, 2005

taken from danny's blog =P A questionaire of gawd knows how many questions -.-

Have you ever?

(X) Smoked a cigarette.
(X) Smoked a cigar.
(X) Made out with a member of the same sex. (Danny & Elmo <3!)
( ) Crashed a friend's car.
( ) Stolen a car.
(X) Been in love
(X) Been dumped.
(X ) Shoplifted.
( ) Been fired.
(X) Been in a fist fight.
(X) Snuck out of your parents' house.
(X) Had feelings for someone who didn't have them back. (hell yes...)
( ) Been arrested.
(X) Made out with a stranger.
( ) Gone on a blind date.
(X) Lied to a friend.
( ) Had a crush on a teacher.
(X) Skipped school.
(X) Slept with a co-worker.
( ) Seen someone die.
( ) Been to Korea.(i soo wish..*sigh*)
( ) Been to Mexico.
(X) Been on a plane.
(X ) Thrown up in a bar.
( ) Purposely set a part of yourself on fire.
(X) Eaten sushi.
( ) Been snowboarding.
(X) Been moshing at a concert.
( ) Been in an abusive relationship.
(X) Taken painkillers.
(X) Laid on your back and watched cloud shapes go by.
(X) Made a snow angel.( when i was in pri3!)
(X) Had a tea party.
( ) Flown a kite.
(X) Built a sand castle.
(X) Gone puddle jumping.
( ) Played dress up.
(X) Jumped into a pile of leaves.
( ) Gone sledding.
(X) Cheated while playing a game.
(X) Been lonely.
(X) Fallen asleep at work/school.(one time too many!)
( ) Used a fake ID.(didnt need to -.-)
(X) Watched the sun set.
(X) Felt an earthquake.
( ) Touched a snake.(not now, not ever!)
(X) Been tickled.
(X) Been robbed.
( ) Robbed someone.
(X) Been misunderstood.
( ) Pet a reindeer/goat.
(X) Won a contest.
(X) Ran a red light.
( ) Been suspended from school.
(X) Had detention.
( ) Been in a car accident.
( ) Had braces. =D
(X) Eaten a whole pint of ice cream in one night.(im not proud of it.. trust me)
(X) Had deja vu.
(X) Danced in the moonlight.
(X) Hated the way you look. (always)
(X) Witnessed a crime.
(X) Pole danced.
(X) Questioned your heart.
(X) Been obsessed with Post-It notes.
(X) Squished barefoot through the mud.
(X) Been lost.
(X) Been to the opposite side of the country. (not vey big is it? lol)
(X) Swam in the ocean.( with a dingy =X)
(X) Felt like dying.
(X) Cried yourself to sleep.
(X) Played cops and robbers.
(X) Recently colored with crayons/colored pencils/markers.
(X) Sung karaoke.(hardly.. but yes)
(X) Paid for a meal with only coins.
(X) Done something you told yourself you wouldn't.
( ) Made prank phone calls.
(X) Laughed until some kind of beverage came out of your nose.
(X) Caught a snowflake on your tongue.
( ) Kissed in the rain.(cant remember such an incident.. gotta try one day!)
( ) Written a letter to Santa Claus.
( ) Been kissed under mistletoe. (*weeps*)
(X) Watched the sun set with someone you cared about.
(X) Blown bubbles.
( ) Made a bonfire on the beach.
( ) Crashed a party.
( ) Have traveled more than 5 days with a car full of people.
(X) Gone roller-skating / blading.(ONCE! 2 weeks ago in fact =P)
(X) Had a wish come true.
( ) Worn pearls.
( ) Jumped off a bridge.
( ) Screamed "penis" in class.
( ) Ate dog food.
( ) Told a complete stranger you loved them.
(X) Sang in the shower.
( ) Have a little black dress.
( ) Had sex in a park.
(X) Had a dream that you married someone.
(X) Glued your hand to something.
( ) Got your tongue stuck to a pole.
( ) Kissed a fish.
( ) Worn the opposite sexes clothes.
( ) Been a cheerleader.
(X) Sat on a roof top.
( ) Had sex at a church.
(X) Screamed at the top of your lungs.
(X) Done a one-handed cartwheel.DID and fell =X
(X) Talked on the phone for more than 6 hours.
(X) Stayed up all night.
( ) Not taken a shower for a week.
( ) Pick and ate an apple right off the tree.
( ) Climbed a tree.
( ) Had a tree house.
(X) Are scared to watch scary movies alone.(keep ur comments to urself on this one -.-
(X) Believe in ghosts.
( ) Have more then 30 pairs of shoes.
(X) Worn a really ugly outfit to school.
( ) Gone streaking.
( ) Played ding-dong-ditch(What?!)
(X) Played chicken.
(X) Been pushed into a pool with all your clothes on.
( ) Been told you're hot by a complete stranger. (ok now im really sad)
( ) Broken a bone.
(X) Been easily amused.
( ) Caught a fish then ate it.
( ) Made porn.
( ) Caught a butterfly.
(X) Laughed so hard you cried.
( ) Cried so hard you laughed.
(X) Had someone moon/flash you.(courtesy of chun.. jus my undies though!)
(X) Cheated on a test.
(X) Forgotten someone's name.
(X) Slept naked.
( ) French braided someone's hair.
( ) Gone skinny dipping in a pool.
( ) Been kicked out of your house.

Well there u have it. Im feeling quite demoralised as of now.. *laughs at myself*

Staring at the orange sky @ 11:21 PM

Monday again and im back at work! OMG... well, glad for a few things! First thing is that exams are over! For now at least.. Secondly is that i finally met up with Fiz again after SOOoooo LONG! Good to have seen ya again bro! here's a pic of 8 of us at spins:

i look like shit in the pic but what the hell.. memories man!

This weekend was nuts i tell ya.. clubbing night after night! Went to Black on Fri where we experimented with our dance to make it better. Elmo joined in the fun too~ Haha! Learnt some of Jessie's Korean Hiphop moves as well! Sae Bom Jang! haha.. Left about 4+ that day i think?

Then it was off to MoMo the next night! Had to worry bout getting in again but luckily i managed to get in without any problems (again this is cause of my looks... im CERTAIN of it -.- ) Again it was quite fun~ Had most of the old Icy ppl and others around.. All of us makin a fool of ourselves by dancin 'happily' and all =P

Oh yea~ I know im abit slow on this but hey! The christmas lightings are on! ha! =X You know the funny thing about the lightings for me? All these years i never really bothered to look at them.. Last night when i was crossing the bridge to take my bus home, i saw the lights.. and it felt so different.. enchanting is really the word. As though the colours of red,green and blue had a story to tell. One of romance? Togetherness with cheer as a community? Anguish? *shruGz* Maybe its jus about life. How colourful it can be in the darkest hours. Hmmm.. sounds good. lol

ANYWAY.. Went to Far East just after most of them left yesterday and was plannin to get my haircut the shop was closed.. Thanks Akito! For accompanyin me that is.. though i didnt get to do my hair -.- so i decided to make a quick list of things i wanna get done during this week (i hope)

Things to do :
1) Haircut
2) Trim eyebrows (dun laugh)
3) Suntan(yes i didnt go to sentosa again)

Staring at the orange sky @ 10:53 AM

Wednesday, November 09, 2005

Supposedly a tough week for me now but im takin things too easilly.. Darn! Whats with me?! Finished the first of three exams on Monday.. Thing now is that the other two are back to back! First is Public Relations which is tommorrow, i will have to read up on a few case scenarios. Not so bad i suppose. Next is the paper on Friday which is the Killer... Mass Media Research. Bleah. Next paper on Public Relations is tommorrow afternoon and i cant absorb anything from my notes! *sigh* Gotta come to work early tomm to help out with the registration for one of the courses held by my division as well. Im plannin to just show up to help for that and then go back home again to study and do some last minute revision before i head for the exam..

Soo many things i wanna or must do on Friday~! Meeting Fiz for lunch and coffee together with Elmo. Man im lookin forward to that =] Hoping to watch a movie (Exorcism of Emily Rose) and then maybe club? Gonna be spendin a bit of money but hell with that, im gonna enjoy myself!

Note to myself: MUST MUST go to SENTOSA this weekend!
Didn't manage to go last week.. Mainly cause i was feelin too damn slack to do anything.. Dunno why but my tan seems to go off quite fast.. half a week later and i seem so YELLOW again.. Lookin at my hands now and feelin so damn turned off by the colour.

Aight.. gotta continue my work for now.
Ciao ppl

Staring at the orange sky @ 2:34 PM

Saturday, November 05, 2005

so many things i wanna blog about.. so many things on my mind. But i cant. Sigh.

Staring at the orange sky @ 2:55 AM

Wednesday, November 02, 2005

Been a week since my last post and funny thing is, i wanted to blog so many things recently but didnt bring myself to do so. Ask me why quick! *Ahem* ok i shall tell you.. Laziness! And maybe some mental blocks everytime i wanna type them out -.- Its a new Month! Woopee~ November is here and in ANOTHER months time, i would have served a year in National Service! (which means i have another year to get through) Darn.

Yesterday was Deepavali and i had my very first attempt on Roller Blades! AHaha.. Man the way my legs would split and me not bein able to close them back was kinda stupid. Proud of one thing though.. Managed to "Move around" without falling yet =D Ok.. Thanks to Steve, Gerald and Wee Lian for teachin me the fundemantals! Other than that, i was cycling around for a bit. Kinda forgot how many babes can be found in East Coast. haha! Guess my mindset have been stuck on the "Sentosa" Image for a while already. After leavin the place, we headed to Changi village where we ate the boneless chicken rice there.. My god.. Most of the food was already "sold out". I tell ya.. making a fuss really helps sometimes =D Managed to squeeze 3 more dishes outta them. ha! After that, Me and Gerald went to Steve's house to play Mahjong till 2am before we headed home.

Mid week now, workin on a Wednesday..Bloody hell, first thing i stepped into office and i hear my SD givin shit about me not following orders correctly bout sending a file. @&^%#&@ First things first, You didnt give me such instructions! And hell, dont put the file into the "OUT" tray AFTER telling me to make you a photocopyof the segments inside!Bleah. Still can shout that i didnt hear your instructions and say that im blur? Fark man.. u shout everything clearly enough for the whole office to hear. How could i not hear your instructions! -.-

Goin to Black tonight and Danny's place tomm. Sounds quite good actually! Just thinkin what else to do on Friday after work and the whole weekend -.- Im SoooOooOo BROKE! Wanna get a haircut, go shopping for clothes, watch movies and shit. Need ta repay my colleague 50bucks as well. Damnit. Cant do any of it till the 12th.. Ahhhh~ I HATE/DESPISE NS life!!

Memories are good arent they? Been wanting to print every pic in my phone that i held dear to me. Which in result, brought out the photographer in me. LOL! Know of those machines at 7-11's or at photoshop outlets like kodak? They print out digital images from your phone when u send it via bluetooth or infrared. Why i like it cause you can choose the format of how ur photos are developed! Planning to get LOADS of pics and paste them all in my office partition wall and at home =D

Staring at the orange sky @ 8:55 AM